The Icon Collection (sorted...)
Aug. 19th, 2006 04:17 pm( the icon collection... )
about this week
Jun. 17th, 2005 06:28 pmEverything we do generates repercussions. If our actions are necessary, we can handle the repercussions. If our actions are a result of us doing-what-we-want-to-do, then we may be overwhelmed. If our actions are a result of arbitrary impulses, we will be swept away. -- Robert Fripp
Necessary actions took place this week, often decided without access to all the information that would have made decisions more comfortable. Regardless of the lack of information, the repercussions of those actions, being necessary, could be and were handled.
There is still one more necessary action on my part that will happen when it has to, and its getting closer. It'll probably happen this weekend with the hopes that its repercussions will be dealt with by monday. This last action is entirely internal on my part:
I have not yet grieved. This is not denial. This was a conscious decision, an exercise of the discipline I have developed in such matters, a necessary action for me to do in order to allow others their time to grieve. The repercussion is that I still have to grieve, which I can handle. This action is necessary, and its repercussions I will also handle. I'll party-hardy tomorrow, but don't expect me to drink too much...i'd rather not be swept away.
In the end I found beginnings, not a vision, a wake up call,
Raised from the dead by a beating heart and at last I can see it all
And my eyes were opened to the darkness, in my hand a burning flame,
A spark of life to touch the fuse and blow these clouds away,
I can make it happen, if I want to,
Make it happen, if I try,
Forgive, forget, forever never means as much as it does today,
Make it happen [-- Fish]
I have not lost my grandmother, but I miss her company.
5 questions from
selkiesiren
Sep. 1st, 2004 07:19 pmUpon having my thursdays surprisingly free in my single 90s when I could (and did) dance pretty much every single day of the week, mostly Scottish, I finally followed a college buddy to the Foggy Bottom practice. The contrast between the simplicity (the basic patterns are variations of the playfords I'd already been doing in 3LF), combined with a power, were already an attraction.
Now add in very good company, an appreciation for other folk arts among the team members, and a bond of good beer drinking, and it sort of exploded within a month.
The general impression is that the Morris takes the dancer, not the
other way around.
2.) Your engagement was
beautiful...I was standing in line nearby when I saw the crowd gather,
and did my best to look over the shoulders of taller people to hear and
see what was going on (missed a lot, but what I caught had me in
tears). How surprised were you? And, what were your thoughts/feelings
at the time on having the "traditional" roles reversed (Good on ye,
Cyd, by the way. I'm all for a little tradition thrashing once in
awhile)?
Surprised? Shocked and Stunned. Absolutely Shocked and Stunned.
Needed serious drink afterwords
(to whit, the Order of the Drunken Sots Germans gladly provided at Ze
Vine Gardon).
3.) When did you start taking the
time
to really educate
yourself about politics? I.E.: was there an event that shook you awake
and made you feel as if you had to, or was it a gradual process?
"We're only immortal for a limited time". Its a lyric from a Rush song (author, Neil Peart).
I'd always been educated about it, but my cynicism and apathy 'cause
"both sides suck", which I inherited from my father, overwhelmed any
other feelings of activism or interest. I was part of the great
1980s and 1990s middle class, the immortal, the timeless, the ones
destined by history to dominate, regardless of the actions of the rich
or the numbers of the poor. The class that saw no end to its
growth except the day when we're all that way. Comfortable,
content.
Greed could be seen, recognized, chastized, and ridiculed out of
importance (a-la commedians like Robin Williams and Whoopi Goldburg and
the whole Comic Relief scene, and of course Doonesbury which I followed
religiously since the 1984 return to operations).
Laughter, logic, reason, and education should have been enough to keep
this country going well, and in 1993 the final idiot in the way of
progress (Bush Sr.) was gone and my parents generation, whom I'd always
respected, finally got the chance to steer this country right and stop
the freeze caused by the WW2 generation.
( things changed... )
4.) William Larkin? Is there anything behind the choice of the name?
My middle name (named for my dad's father), and my brother's middle name (named for a surname on mom's side, first arrived in the colonies in 1634). Both names are period well before the renaissance, which was a Markland / Three Left Feet requirement I had to keep in mind, that being my first performance dance group. Part of me (the part of me that keeps getting called "Joe" at least 20 times a day on site) is thinking of retiring the name in favor of something with Joseph in it, similar to what Bob Garman did.
5.) How do *you* perceive the average perception of you? What do you think the average Joe sees when they look at "Joe"?
I really have no idea. I know nobody really sees the whole thing, because each thing I do or am part of, is done to a considerable depth. The faire crowd certainly doesn't see just how scientific and geeky I can be; I leave it out of faire now (didn't used to, and annoyed people that way). Even in the historical setting, they don't see just how much history I have in me. They know I'm "smart", but (no egotism here, really), they have no idea just how smart or just how much *stuff* is in my head. I'm incredibly arrogant, but as I put it arrogance means being able to back it up. (note, that doesn't mean being right, that just means being able to back it up -- governments are arrogant because they can back it up with the rule of law and a police force).
As a result, I'm sometimes misinterpreted. Arrogance doesn't necessarilly mean having an ulterior motive or a constant prejudice, but it can be perceived that way.
One of the reasons my faire persona is more foole-like / child-like (not the extremes of an O or Stupina, but you get the idea; its just a mask, not a character) is because that arrogance combined with my short temper can piss people off. Better to keep those parts of my life hidden. Playing for kids has worked (they're still Cat&Fiddle's core/target audience) in helping me build that mask. But that mask in a sense exists for their protection rather than mine. "Silly-boy" as Cyd calls it, is much more enjoyable/comfortable to be around than "Cranky-boy".
* no, I don't have a kid yet, but its in the plans.