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acroyearfor the better part of the last year, i've felt like Patton stuck in London while the rest of the troops invaded normandy..."An entire world at war and I'm left out of it? God will NOT permit this!"
well, this time around, there's no 3rd army to take over. there's nothing to do until october, "maybe" (this is for a project that's promised us money since early '02). $1 billion a week has its costs, and I'm now a casualty of darpa's inability to spend the money it already has and already has allocated to us. ISX simply can't afford to keep paying me to do "next to nothing" while waiting for the real money to come in.
metaphores aside: I done been laid off, dudes! :)
surprisingly, I actually am feeling no anger. there's almost a relief. better to know that i'm doing nothing than to constantly be told I *might* be doing something, maybe. the uncertainty of what work I was doing was driving me nuts and being more stressful than what should be a typical and quick job hunt.
I got 4 weeks severance, plus 100 hours of vacation, plus selling back 100 shares (tho that ain't gonna be much). the bosses have already sent out emails to a few ex-ISXers and a consulting company in reston (that employed me back in 96, the last time I was out of work), plus a few other leads, though I still gotta update the (now 7 years out of date) resume (might as well start over).
yes, this is what cyd's worried about, and to her its a BIG worry, and I understand that, but I'm not worried right now. as with how I handled last friday. there are steps to take and things to do, and those steps will be taken and things done in due time. there's a release feeling, actually, in that time is now available to handle these other things like prep for faire taking care of the other car once it needs taking care of (its still up north in western PA). there's also a good thing in that i'm being given the time i need to pack and leave properly, as opposed to my last canning where it was "5pm, sharp, rest goes in the trash" (among other bad things like cutting off my network, erasing all my email before i could archive it, and throwing away my snail mail including a $45 book i had to pay for anyways).
warning: I'll accept a "lemme buy you a beer" once or twice, but I'm not spending the whole faire season commisseratingly drunk. i do have a job there, you know, and don't need to get on carolyn's bad side :).
email and IM access for me will obviously be limited for the next few weeks. but then, I don't really get all that many interruptions (most of my commos nowadays are on LJ anyways), though I am annoyed that google's not letting me post right now, keeping my AFR one-sided for now. *sigh*
well, this time around, there's no 3rd army to take over. there's nothing to do until october, "maybe" (this is for a project that's promised us money since early '02). $1 billion a week has its costs, and I'm now a casualty of darpa's inability to spend the money it already has and already has allocated to us. ISX simply can't afford to keep paying me to do "next to nothing" while waiting for the real money to come in.
metaphores aside: I done been laid off, dudes! :)
surprisingly, I actually am feeling no anger. there's almost a relief. better to know that i'm doing nothing than to constantly be told I *might* be doing something, maybe. the uncertainty of what work I was doing was driving me nuts and being more stressful than what should be a typical and quick job hunt.
I got 4 weeks severance, plus 100 hours of vacation, plus selling back 100 shares (tho that ain't gonna be much). the bosses have already sent out emails to a few ex-ISXers and a consulting company in reston (that employed me back in 96, the last time I was out of work), plus a few other leads, though I still gotta update the (now 7 years out of date) resume (might as well start over).
yes, this is what cyd's worried about, and to her its a BIG worry, and I understand that, but I'm not worried right now. as with how I handled last friday. there are steps to take and things to do, and those steps will be taken and things done in due time. there's a release feeling, actually, in that time is now available to handle these other things like prep for faire taking care of the other car once it needs taking care of (its still up north in western PA). there's also a good thing in that i'm being given the time i need to pack and leave properly, as opposed to my last canning where it was "5pm, sharp, rest goes in the trash" (among other bad things like cutting off my network, erasing all my email before i could archive it, and throwing away my snail mail including a $45 book i had to pay for anyways).
warning: I'll accept a "lemme buy you a beer" once or twice, but I'm not spending the whole faire season commisseratingly drunk. i do have a job there, you know, and don't need to get on carolyn's bad side :).
email and IM access for me will obviously be limited for the next few weeks. but then, I don't really get all that many interruptions (most of my commos nowadays are on LJ anyways), though I am annoyed that google's not letting me post right now, keeping my AFR one-sided for now. *sigh*
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Date: 2003-08-20 09:30 am (UTC)